You may have noticed that the last post I wrote on here was rather reflective. I'm guessing it was pretty clear that I'd been mulling over some thoughts and ideas. You may have even guessed that some 'big event' had just passed. Yep, birthdays call for reflective times!
It was a bit strange going from 18 to 19. It's just such a random number. When you turn 18, you hit the big one. Finally, you're classified as an adult, you finally get the independence to make your own mistakes (Oops.. I mean decisions of course). Turning 20 is also a pretty big thing. Suddenly, you're no longer a moody, hormonal teenager. That room for you to make your own mistakes suddenly disappears and you've reached a new chapter in your life. But what happened to 19? Does it count? Does it even mean anything? While we're at it.. What about after your 21st birthday? Is it only downhill from there. I think you can see how I always end up being so reflective during my birthdays.
So here's the thing. Why am I so bothered about what is expected of you at a certain age? Who cares about how old you are anyway? I could easily just lie about it anyway (I have been told on different occasions that my face is oddly similar to that of a 12 year-old). I feel like the years are already speeding up (and I'm not even 20 yet). So, I've decided to do something else. I want to remember each and every age, just not in the way that we're often encouraged to: "young and naive", "moody teenager," "overworking adult" and "helpless and old". I want to remember the purpose and meaning of every age based on the events I've experienced and lessons I've learned. For example, when thinking of a typical 18 year old, I think of a teenager drifting away from their family and finding a life of their own (through friends and partners and whatnot). But I didn't really have that. In fact, I definitely learned to appreciate my family more this year.
Why don't we create new years resolutions when we turn a new age? Why don't we reflect and appreciate the lessons we learned during this time? Somehow I always feel a much stronger urge to do it now rather than at the new years.
I'm not trying to encourage you to turn your birthday into something big and reflective if you don't want to. Some don't really identify with their birthdays and that's perfectly fine. Maybe just keep a list of your accomplishments at that particular age when you turn another year older. It's just a little suggestion.. Or thought..
I'm a university student who loves to keep themselves busy with anything but university work. I also enjoy looking like a banana as you can tell from all the yellow coat pictures. I've somehow managed to turn into a music and photography geek. I'm not entirely sure how that happened but let's just go with it. That seems to be my life motto at the moment.